Isaiah 42:10 nightmare

warning**** tragic and may be triggering

After staying up late last night with liz talking about this weekends concert plans it must have still been on my mind when i went to sleep....here is the dream that made me wake up in tears...title "do you believe in god"

`setting` Isaiah 42:10 concert on 8-18-09 outside, near a body of water

The dream started out a beautiful afternoon. There were familys with huge smiles on their faces hugging their children and enjoying the festivals. I, of course, was going to enjoy the isaiah show with liz like usual. The band had just arrived and started doing soundcheck. Aaron wanted his usual manly guyliner for the show, so liz was kind and did his makeup for him. Happiness is surrounding me and liz and we have the feeling that nothing can go wrong. Ben and chris invited us t come backstage with them and chill before the concert. Of course we were stoked and quickly followed them. Everyone in the band is so nice and funny its a blessing to be in their company. After taking pics and messin around some liz goes off wth some other friends and i stay behind with ben, chris, and aaron. The band is in need of sunblock and water so i offer to drive them to the store and aaron comes to be a stand in body gaurd so we dont get mobbed too horribly.

When we are returning to the venue i notice some strange looking guys just standing around looking from each other, then looking around, then back to meet eyes. (vry creepy) i did not want to drop the guys off rigt infront o those guys because i had a bad feelin about them so i pulled up about 20 feet, parked and got out of the car and started tounload the waater and such. when i returned from putting the water in a cooler i see that the boys had nt gotten ou of the van and there was a little bit of a crowd around th epassanger side. as i get closer i see aaron and chris sneaking out of the driverside passanger door.
This throws me into extreme panic. so i run up to them and ask what is going on. Aaron replys " theres a man with a gun...Ben is still in there! hes trapped!" i begin to freak out but keep my cool as much as possible to save ben. i go around the van to see one of the scary guys pointing a gun at ben. I immidiatly know this could endvery baly and beg the familys to call 9-1-1 and get their children far from the van.
(at this time the dream pans over to liz who is with her best friend) they are talking about how excited they are for the show and cant wait to hang out with the band after the show. (they are in a car driving around the town) when they see cops and ambulances heading twords the festival grounds they decide to followto see what is going on. thankfully the couldnt get through.

(pans very quickly back to ben and jen at the van) The man turns out to be an aithiest who has come to break up the concert and stop them from spreading the love of god. He calmly asks ben if he believes in god. Ben says "yes he is the reason i live." the man got very aggitated after asking him a few more times. he screams " there is no such thing as eternal life, the lord, or heaven and hell.!!!" ben stays calm and starts preaching how god will always love you and he will come into your life at any point in your life even if you have sinned. tears start rolling down my eyes. The man had had enough. ~points the gun directly at ben's hat that has a cross on it~ and yells " DO YOU BELIEVE IN GOD??!" ben knowing what is going to happen says a prayer tells me not to be mad at god for this and says " yes the lord is real and his love will never leave me" the man pulls the trigger.
i leap twords ben but it is too late. i lay there holding him as he takes his last breath. i immediatly begin praying to the lord that ben be protected in his afterlife and let his soul live on within us. He had died because he believed in god. when aaron heard the gun shot he came running and tackled the man who murdered ben. there were also 2 other people shot because they refused to say tha they didnt believe in god. andthis whole time i had no idea where liz was, if shewas ok, and didnt know how she would react tothis horrible event on the anniversary of a horrible day in her life. i went running aroudn the park after leaving ben with aaron and chris, and found liz tryign to get through the traffic. she saw i was hsysterical and knew something horrible had happened. i asked her to pray with me. then i just hugged her and quietly told her that ben had served the lord and is now with him for eternity. liz fell to her knees and all i could do was hold her and cry with her.

and thats the horrible nightmare that woke me up in tears.