God always has a positive answer

Today i got my diagnosis(well at least a pre diagnosis) and it is PCOS. I was woken up at 8:30 to a phonecall from the doctors...let me tell you, not the best way to wake up. So after the phone call i just awake, thinking, and for the first time in awhile, having fears and feeling a slight loss of hope.(which really worried me) So i just sat down and talked it out with god. And i realized this is just a pebble in the road not a mountain. Yes i have a life long disease/syndrom. But theres treatments for it and it doesnt change who i am or how i will go about my life. So then instead of feeling sorry for myself i began praising god that its nothing more serious and that there are treatments. I also know if its in gods will that i have children he will provide.

While reading through a friends blog i found this and it just made my night. after all my doubts and fears it was a nice reminder.

GOD HAS A POSITIVE ANSWER

You say: 'It's impossible'

God says: All things are possible

(Luke 18:27)

You say: 'I'm too tired'

God says: I will give you rest

(Matthew 11:28-30)

You say: 'Nobody really loves me'

God says: I love you

(John 3:16 & John 3:34 )

You say: 'I can't go on'

God says: My grace is sufficient

(II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)

You say: 'I can't figure things out'

God says: I will direct your steps

(Proverbs 3:5-6)

You say: 'I can't do it'

God says: You can do all things

(Philippians 4:13)

You say: 'I'm not able'

God says: I am able

(II Corinthians 9:8)

You say: 'It's not worth it'

God says: It will be worth it

(Roman 8:28 )

You say: 'I can't forgive myself'

God says: I Forgive you

(I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)

You say: 'I can't manage'

God says: I will supply all your needs

(Philippians 4:19)

You say: 'I'm afraid'

God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear

(II Timothy 1:7)

You say: 'I'm always worried and frustrated'

God says: Cast all your cares on ME

(I Peter 5:7)

You say: 'I'm not smart enough'

God says: I give you wisdom

(I Corinthians 1:30)

You say: 'I feel all alone'

God says: I will never leave you or forsake you

(Hebrews 13:5)

I love how people make these and forward them through emails and such but people seldom actually, truly, REALLY believe them. If God says it, He means it because believe me, if He didn't mean it, He wouldn't have said it to begin with. So, REST in Him and take joy in the fact that you are His child and have nothing to really worry about. Have peace and be truly happy! :) ~peace.

*do you know what it feels like to want to surrender*

So much to blog...such a little keyboard

I just got back from visiting an amazing friend who shared her notes with me on her weekend. It's so inspiring to see god work and really show himself like he did with my friend. I have so many thoughts on what she learned and shared with me but since I only have my iPod to type on I must wait till another day. Things to come. God chose you! My weekend. Reflection on music and lots more

This weekend

Tonight after some relaxing alone time with god and reading a friends blog i am feeling very calm and loved. Until about a few weeks ago i had been feeling kind of jealous of one of my very close friends who is going out of town for the weekend. We had made some plans to go to some skillet shows this weekend long ago. but never really made it official, yet in my mind they were set in stone. So when she started talking about going to meet another friend of hers and hanging out with her i realized i wasn't going with her and that she needed to go out on her own because god was calling her to step out of her comfort zone for what HE wants for her. Even though i knew this i was still upset that WE wern't going to be having an epic weekend together.

Then after i had some serious god time, it suddenly dawned on me that this was a GOOD thing for me too. She is going to be having one of the best weekends of her life thus far, and instead of sitting home and feeling sorry for myself like i initially was planning on doing. A certain accordion playing friend of mine told me that *I* cant sit around and do nothing about my life and expect to have a good time. So in an attempt to cheer me up he planned a virtual day at the beach for us to hang out and play in the sand and get "down and dirty" as swamp monsters =P even though its only a virtual thing it just the fact that he would think of that to make me feel better really showed me he cares.

A few days after this convo with "A" friend and i were sitting around bored and decided that we should hang out soon. And being that i didn't want to be home alone this weekend i suggested we get together to hang out. This will be the first time that i will be driving more then 45 min to go see someone EVER and also the first time that we will hang out with just us(which normally i would be freaking out and very nervous) but in the past few months me and "A" friend have gotten very close and have had some very long convos about things i don't talk about with many other people. So i am VERY excited to be spending the weekend with her(which i also haven't done with anyone since my best friend and i had our falling out) and just having some great lounging time.

Since my accordion playing friend and "A" friend have reached out to me like this, and having some very amazing god times and just being reminded by my special friend that you need to be Living not just alive have really had me in a great mood. Every aspect of my life just seems to be better. not that they have changed. *I* have changed, and my outlook on things have changed. i even had the guts to talk to my parents about being baptized and when they criticized me for it. i didn't let it get me down. i just turned to Jesus and knew that it was the right thing to do. Work has even been great. (which has never happened to me) but i shall blog about my whole work experience later. this blog is already WAY to long and full of babble. (sorry to whoever is still reading this =P i owe you a cookie for being so determined to finish reading this)

But i am off to pray for a few friends who are going through rough times. and also pray for my close friend to keep her positive look on life and this weekend. <3

*do you know what it feels like to want to surrender*